Dorkismo

Maria Bustillos writes in her book Dorkismo: The Macho of the Dork: "Like its etymological prototype, 'machismo,' dorkismo connotes a kind of inner pride and self-confidence. It is the Macho of the Dork, or dork cojones, if you like: the courage to be yourself, despite the risk or even certainty of being thought a total idiot." Whoever our dancer is, I believe she is displaying dorkismo of the highest caliber. Her song selections, Bobby O's "She Has a Way" and Pamala Stanley's "Coming Out of Hiding" are deep crate disco dorkaliciousness, but does she care? No. She loves these songs. She loves to dance to them. In fact she's gone and videotaped herself doing just that and posted it on YouTube so everyone can know just how much she freakin' loves it! And there's plenty more for your perusal where this one came from.

While there are web sites and web "masters" that have developed entire careers based on the posting of such videos and subsequently tearing them apart for audience amusement, my goal for 2010 is to be a lot more like our tiny dancer, to care what others think a whole lot less and to strive to live in the highest joy of what truly delights me a whole lot more, no matter how stupid it might be, no matter how gay it looks, no matter what a dork it makes me. But you say, "Wait a minute, you're like this hula hooping guy in your 40's, among other things. We're already well aware of just how big a dork you are." True, and there are times I genuinely don't care and can let it all go, and then there are others where I find myself making apologies for who I am, what I like, playing smoke and mirror games to foggily reflect only the things I think are worthy of being shown. And as if it isn't bad enough that "they" don't even get to know or see the real me in the process, what's worse is that I'm the one who preemptively censored myself. I'm the asshole critic reviewing my life script with a head full of self-talk resembling a yappy little dog, one that needs to be politely told to shut the fuck up, so I can get on with the business of enjoying life, to its fullest!